Beautiful liar

This is a beautiful lie,
My last lie.
Even if it hurts to death,
I am hiding myself
under a mask for you.

I see myself in the mirror and I ask myself
Will it really make you happy if I let you go?
I’ll throw myself away completely
because you need quiet time to yourself
Did I say those things without even meaning it?
As I replay your face
when you screamed "go away"
I’m tainting our memories that were beautiful
I haven’t imagined a life without you yet
but please be happy
So that at least my lie can shine

I’m letting go of your tightly held hands
But my heart is still the same
But I’ll let you go.
I think it’s best for you
if I end it right here

It’s alright if you leave me
I want you to be happy
I’m a beautiful liar.

You keep shedding tears
in front of me.
It was an unexpected line that
led to the next chapter;
You told me to take back
the words I spit out
As you hold onto my face.
Then you collapsed off your feet
This isn’t the future I thought of...
It seemed like a sin to look at you;
like a lonely tied up dog.
So I’m swallowing up my feelings
and letting you go.
You must live better than me, promise me.
But the moment I said that,
you turned around.

I won’t hang onto you, I will smile
This is me, don’t hesitate anymore
Leave me !

It’s time for me to give you
The last bits of my heart.
The fact that we loved is beautiful.

Me with iron shackles on my legs
Is more like me than ever before.
(You turned around, ran to me
Told me not to say stupid lies
As you smiled in front of me)

It’s a beautiful pain
Letting you go
I have to kill myself inside,
Swallow my tears,
And put on a smiling mask

I feel so relieved now.
Please don’t worry about me
I’m a beautiful
No, a cowardly liar...

Credits: VIXX LR