A new start..it's always a good thing in this messed up life of mine, and not only mine. We're young, It's normal for us to be messed up(I think...). Going to college has been for me a new start, and has given to me the opportunity of looking at life from a different point of view, a more mature one. Unfortunately I'm living alone, which is kind of hard for me because I'm not used to being on my own. Some may say that it's good that I'm living alone, I have all the peace and quiet that I want, but I like to talk, and when I get home to my room, and I find nobody, It's kind of sad. Moving on:))
Being away from home has not affected me as much as I thought. I got used to it pretty fast. Being all by myself, cooking for myself, cleaning my room, and all the things that I'm doing for me, alone, with no help, made me a tiny bit more mature. I say a tiny bit because I'm still at the beginning of it.
The best parts of being in college are definitely the new friends. You may be the most socially awkward person, but in college you get over it and make friends very fast. All in all I like my college life so far. It has been tiring but damn fun.
You get to meet all kinds of people, mostly the same as you, scared of this new beginning, but happy to be able to upgrade their level of maturity.
Moving to a new town, living a whole new kind of life, meeting new people, making new friends, being on our own ( without our mommy cleaning after us;)) ), Worshiping the little amount of money that we have, and that it's supposed to last a whole month...haaa :( This sounds to be like the word that I fear most : adulthood. Brace yourself, adulthood it's coming, and fast.
P.S: packing and unpacking is the worst part of moving. I HATE it.
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Saturday 29 September 2012
Friday 14 September 2012
Feelings in or out?
I'm going in circles again...some tell me that I attach to a person too much and some that I should not hide my feelings and stick to that person like a leech. My past self was a very cold person, hiding all her feeling, refusing to express any type of affection. Like my father told me : "your heart is made of ice". Well I guess that ice melted away because I'm to damn affectionate. I guess finding the right friend to oped up my eyes was all I needed.
Now, coming back to the subject; Hiding you feeling is not good, putting them on the table is not good as well. I kind of tend to stay in the middle; show your true feelings, but not all of them, it's good to keep some just for yourself. If you're too cold and indifferent you're going to have bad time; prepare yourself to hear that in every single day :" You're too cold, why can't you be more kind with me? Why don't you love me?" And it's not nice to hear all those things from the one that you love. The overly attached girlfriend or boyfriend also annoy me. Don't stick to that person too much, like a leech because sooner or later they'll get tired of you and your behavior. Now speaking from a girls point of view, girls stop being so annoying. When he goes out with his friends try to hide your phone away to stop yourself from calling him. He still has friends after all; he needs to keep socializing, he can't go out ALWAYS with you. Give him a break from time to time ( not to often though, he may get the wrong idea that you don't care about him).
Hearing after a week or two of relationship that : "God, I so love this boy; he's my life", makes me want to say : Are you kidding me? You can't be talking about love after a week of being with one person...You barely get to know his CV( his name, where he lives, favorite things and so on).
Some people chose to hide their feelings because they are afraid to be rejected. I totally understand that, but doing so you only harm yourself and you may be harming the other person as well because he may be in the same situation, he may be loving you as well but he's afraid to tell. So one day, when you feel more comfortable with him, just tell him, don't be afraid of being rejected. It happens, we move on.
So, to wrap things up... One needs to express some feelings because we are human beings and we feel, but be careful of the amount of feelings that to let to show. Some may take advantage of that and only suffering will come for you.
Now, coming back to the subject; Hiding you feeling is not good, putting them on the table is not good as well. I kind of tend to stay in the middle; show your true feelings, but not all of them, it's good to keep some just for yourself. If you're too cold and indifferent you're going to have bad time; prepare yourself to hear that in every single day :" You're too cold, why can't you be more kind with me? Why don't you love me?" And it's not nice to hear all those things from the one that you love. The overly attached girlfriend or boyfriend also annoy me. Don't stick to that person too much, like a leech because sooner or later they'll get tired of you and your behavior. Now speaking from a girls point of view, girls stop being so annoying. When he goes out with his friends try to hide your phone away to stop yourself from calling him. He still has friends after all; he needs to keep socializing, he can't go out ALWAYS with you. Give him a break from time to time ( not to often though, he may get the wrong idea that you don't care about him).
Hearing after a week or two of relationship that : "God, I so love this boy; he's my life", makes me want to say : Are you kidding me? You can't be talking about love after a week of being with one person...You barely get to know his CV( his name, where he lives, favorite things and so on).
Some people chose to hide their feelings because they are afraid to be rejected. I totally understand that, but doing so you only harm yourself and you may be harming the other person as well because he may be in the same situation, he may be loving you as well but he's afraid to tell. So one day, when you feel more comfortable with him, just tell him, don't be afraid of being rejected. It happens, we move on.
So, to wrap things up... One needs to express some feelings because we are human beings and we feel, but be careful of the amount of feelings that to let to show. Some may take advantage of that and only suffering will come for you.
Saturday 8 September 2012
Love or Life?
A good friend of mine asked me an interesting question : "If you were to choose between love and life, what would you choose?" I have to say that at that moment and time I didn't know what to say. If I would chose life, life without love is meaningless, and love..well you can't love if you're not alive so...
These days I've been hooked on love, I keep on thinking, and thinking, and thinking about love. Like : what would it be like?, what could have been?, what if?.
Have you ever wished that you could erase some of your memories? I know I have. But then again if I hadn't lived what I lived, I guess I wouldn't be who I am today. They say that you don't remember days, you remember moments...yeah right. I remember freaking days...days that I wish to forget, but can't do so, so I'll have to live with them. They're a part of my life after all. No matter how those memories are, good or bad, they're mine, and they make me who I am.
In the end I choose life over love. One makes his own luck, his own fate...and if you're alive and kicking you can love and be loved back. Like Dr House said: Oxygen is more important than love. I just can't understand children these days that say that " if I don't have him, if he doesn't love me, I don't want to live anymore." When I hear this kind of talking coming from a 14 year old, I can't control the urge to slap that kid so hard to bring him back to Earth. Life doesn't end at one man or woman. The film of one's life is full of good, bad, horrible moments brought on by all kinds of people. If we don't learn from a young age to not give a damn of what others say or do, were going to end up bad. Sometimes we have to go on our own, to have a little alone time, just for ourselves to analyze the happenings in our life so far. After that we head out in the world that will surely seem better.
If you're alive, you'll be loved. Sooner or later someone will show how it feels to be truly loved. It is impossible for someone not to be loved. Keep in mind that some people have difficulties in showing their true feelings. Take some time and think about the people around you. You'll never know from where love will pop out.
These days I've been hooked on love, I keep on thinking, and thinking, and thinking about love. Like : what would it be like?, what could have been?, what if?.
Have you ever wished that you could erase some of your memories? I know I have. But then again if I hadn't lived what I lived, I guess I wouldn't be who I am today. They say that you don't remember days, you remember moments...yeah right. I remember freaking days...days that I wish to forget, but can't do so, so I'll have to live with them. They're a part of my life after all. No matter how those memories are, good or bad, they're mine, and they make me who I am.
In the end I choose life over love. One makes his own luck, his own fate...and if you're alive and kicking you can love and be loved back. Like Dr House said: Oxygen is more important than love. I just can't understand children these days that say that " if I don't have him, if he doesn't love me, I don't want to live anymore." When I hear this kind of talking coming from a 14 year old, I can't control the urge to slap that kid so hard to bring him back to Earth. Life doesn't end at one man or woman. The film of one's life is full of good, bad, horrible moments brought on by all kinds of people. If we don't learn from a young age to not give a damn of what others say or do, were going to end up bad. Sometimes we have to go on our own, to have a little alone time, just for ourselves to analyze the happenings in our life so far. After that we head out in the world that will surely seem better.
If you're alive, you'll be loved. Sooner or later someone will show how it feels to be truly loved. It is impossible for someone not to be loved. Keep in mind that some people have difficulties in showing their true feelings. Take some time and think about the people around you. You'll never know from where love will pop out.
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